CERITA LANGSIR.

2 months away to the wedding. 

Today I went to Kamdar to buy kain for the curtain. To have the curtain into reality is a hassle. First is to choose which textile warehouse offers the best price. I went to Kamdar and Jakel, and obviously the former is cheaper. Second, to choose the right kain. I opt for a purple color curtain with yellowish gold pattern. I really hope mom will like it. The next step is finding the tailor that again, offer the best price. My finding (ceh) is Jakel is the most expensive, Kamdar and a tailor in Beserah offer almost similar price, but I opt for the kakak in Beserah as she offer slightly cheaper price and because she is so nice and helpful. See, your attitude will always help u in whatever situation. 

So I bought the kain, 50 meter worth of kain + 8 meter plain satin for the curtain’s top scallop + 4 meter sheer curtain. Trust me its sooo heavy. I was thinking how am I going to bring the package into my car that I park about 300 meter away. Oh yes I went there alone. *teary eyes*

But again, in the midst of self-centered, egocentric world that we live in now, there are still nice people around. The adik tukang potong kain, despite being busy with lotsa customers and its not in her jobscope to carry customer’s purchase, help me carry the kain to my car. Thank you adik. Ramai lagi orang baik dalam dunia ini, semoga kita berjumpa, berurusan dan dikelilingi oleh mereka2 ini. Amin. 

Well, I know its nothing for some people, but I think preparing a set of curtain to our home is a big thing for me. I did almost everything on my own. Survey, cari harga murah, tengok pattern and design langsir, oh terasa sungguh seperti mak2 orang dik non… But of course ada jugak yg membantu. Kak ecah tolong survey tailor langsir di kuantan ni. Kakni sponsor separuh (which really mean a lot to me thanks kakak). Mak I tak berapa sihat, so she cudnt help with the langsir. Kalau dulu2 dia jahit sendiri. Takpe la, ini kira hadiah kita untuk mak. 

The other day I went to kedai Koboi to survey doorgift and some other things for the wedding. Yup yours truly went there alone. Ilman tanya kenapa tak ajak dia. I jawab saya segan. Heh. Tapi memang betul, I segan nak ajak orang, takut menyusahkan plk. Balik jengka last week I gi bridal butik pon sensorang je. Long ago its always hard for me to decide on something on my own. Yes I’m not a good decision maker. But now I think I have improved a lot. Somebody has to decide, kalau pergi sorang, orang yang pergi sorang tu la decide. Right? So takpe la, kite jadi wedding planner wedding sendiri. But so far I still can cope with it. 

Nampak je macam I buat semua sensorang. Tapi takla.. the plan, the thinking part, still involve those that very dear to me. Before pilih apa2, or decide apa2, I always kecoh2 tanya kat semua orang. I am glad I have those people around me. My family, Ilman, Miya, and my friends yang duk jauh2 pon selalu tanya pasal preparation. I am a spoiled kid in that sense but I don’t mind being one. I don’t mind being the doer, the one who execute the plan. But I am helpless and hopeless without support and encouragement from my love one. 

Motif bercerita cerita langsir? Saja..i tengok ramai bride-to-be buat blog cite preparation kawen. I pon nak buat la jugak. Heh. :)

fix you is back on top of my playlist. one of my encouragement it is!

KE MANA KAU HILANG?

Dah 3 orang kawan pm aku kat facebook. Cakap aku senyap sekarang. Facts? Tak lah.. aku macam dulu je. But I think there’s more in life than facebook. Hari2 bukak facebook, tengok gelagat orang, tengok gambar orang, apa orang tu buat, apa orang ni cakap. Kadang2 aku tersenyum sendiri, gelak pon ada. 

Aku rasa aku melalui fasa hidup yang baru sekarang. Eceh. Umur dah 25, dah nak masuk 26 pon x lama lagi. Dah nak kahwin pon x lama lagi, Insya Allah. Maybe aku risau pikir benda2 macam ni, tu yang nampak senyap tu. Truth be told, preparation nak kahwin tak banyak sangat yang dibuat. Risau? Of course. Nak kahwin kurang 3 bulan dari sekarang. Tapi boleh tak nak cakap I am more concerned to life after marriage than the majlis itself. Makin nak kahwin, aku jadi makin sensitive. Tak..bukan dengan Ilman. Dia baik. Very understanding. And now that he is here I am very happy. Thank you love. 

Yang buat aku jadi sensitif ialah sebab aku rasa more attached to my family now, especially ngan mak abah. Aku memang selalu balik, almost every week. Tapi ada sekali bulan lepas 3 minggu tak balik sebab ada urusan lain. Masuk minggu ke 3 tu lepas solat aku duk nangis teringat mak abah. Lepas kahwin, ketaatan aku, hidup aku, apa yang aku buat, semua untuk suami (definitely selepas Allah dan Rasul). Seriously, aku memang looking forward jugak untuk itu. Untuk jadi sorang isteri. Bukan aku taknak. Naaakkk sangat (eh bunyi macam gatal pulak haha).Tapi tu la, aku rasa sedih jugak, untuk jadi kepunyaan orang lain. Confusing kan? Eh? Yang tu nak, yang ni pon nak. Heh. 

Perempuan jomblo is one of my favorite blog. There is one entry that makes me cry. Again. Aih asyik nangis je. Cengeng betul. Tapi aku nangis sorang2 dalam bilik tak kacau orang. Heh.

http://perempuanjomblo.blogspot.com/2012/10/beginilah-adanya.html

Apa yang dia tulis, walaupun simple, pengolahannya, ceritanya, betul2 tinggal kesan kat aku. Beginilah adanya. Anak hanya pinjaman. Nanti esok2 aku pon macam tu la agaknya bila ada anak. 

So apa benda yang aku nak tulis ni? Dear friends, don’t worry. I am still here. If u come here, and we hang out, I am still me, like before. Bercerita. Bergelak sakan. Bergurau senda. Kuat makan. Tapi aku rasa, biarlah aku buat semua tu with real person, real life. Tak perlu nak update status kat facebook ‘hari ni aku makan durian crepe nyam2’. Atau ‘rindunyaaa la kat dia’. Atau ‘saya laparrr’. I am enjoying the real life experience makan durian crepe ngan kak aishah kat café KOM. Kalau rindu takyah bagi tau facebook, bagi tau la kat orang yang kita rindu tu. Kalau lapar pergi cari makan, facebook bukan boleh bagi kita makan. Heh. 

Till then. Kalau rindu aku, pm/whatsapp/call/sms saje. Atau datang sini. Organize bachelorette party untuk aku. Bawak aku main games kat Genting. Please.. Hehe. 

LAIN SYAKARTUM LA-ADZII DANNAKUM

There are so many reasons to be grateful to Allah. For one, I am still breathing and alive today. Alhamdulillah. And having chance to seek knowledge, and attend the pre-marriage course, and having decent meal, and living in a war-free country (lets pray for our brothers and sisters in Palestine), and watching the rain pouring, and enjoying the smell of the wet grass, and listening to the lovely sound when u step on the dried leaf, and been bless with great family and fiancée and friends, and many more. Oh my the list goes on and on, just like infinity. There is no reason not to love Allah and be grateful to Him, right?

Roti cepit dengan telur + tomato + cili sos + light mayonnaise is one of the things to be grateful to have when u are hungry and too lazy to cook something more complex :)

Just completed my pre-marriage course happening in the Masjid Negeri. It was a 2 days course, from 8 am till 5 pm. It is indeed a very beneficial one, despite me being sleepy and tired and stuff. They talk about things that we already know, the basic principle of Islam, i.e Aqidah, Ibadah, Akhlaq, Munakahat, Family Management, and General Health. And I’ve learnt about all these like century ago. But that being said, it is always good to refresh all these. Fi al-‘iadah an-nafi’ah. Di setiap pengulangan itu ada manfaatnya. 

One of the reason to be grateful

And what I like the most is when one of the speakers reminds us that nikah is also ibadah. Been busy thinking and planning for the wedding, what color to choose, which bridal package to take, when to get the invitation card ready (this list also goes on and on..aiyak!), I tend to forget that nikah is an ibadah. So its good to always re-check our niyyah and set them straight, lillahita’ala. Insya Allah. 

I am grateful to HIM for giving me him

Another reason to be grateful? While typing all the stuffs above, my mom called. She reminds me to eat the pulut serawa durian that she made, that Long brought here for me. A little something like that really brought tears to my eyes. Mother’s love is endless. 

Grateful for good foods

The persons who is responsible for the above foods -durian dari kebun abah, masakan dari air tangan mak. What else can I ask for except Allah's blessing on them?

Again, good foods! Grateful for this jar of cookies hand made by nice and polite student who happened to know how monstrous I become when it comes to cookies *wave to u Husna*

Alhamdulillah wa syukurillah.. 

SUDAH SEPURNAMA

Sudah sepurnama

Aku jadi tunangan dia

Dia jadi tunangan aku

Dia buat aku bahagia, ketawa, tersenyum, berduka, menangis, kemudian bahagia semula

Harap aku, dia juga bahagia dengan aku

Aku merajuk dia pujuk (tapi dibiarkan dahulu beberapa ketika, heh)

Dia marah aku bersabar

Sedih aku dia hilangkan

Penat dia aku kasihankan (kalau dah kahwin boleh la picitkan, heh gatalkan aku)

Aku belajar kesukaan dia

Dia belajar kegemaran aku

Dia terima aku seadanya

Tapi aku tetap berusaha

dan berdoa

Mahu jadi yang terbaik untuk dia

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Terima kasih Tuhan

Pinjamkan dia lebih lama untuk aku..biar sampai tua, sampai tutup mata..

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Ok, finished my puisi. Jiwang kan kite? Haha. I wrote my engagement story a couple of week back, but somehow  malu pulak nak tepek kat sini (walaupun aku tahu, cuma beberapa teman dan kenalan aku saja yang baca blog ni, heh). It's ok let it be in the draft. Kite tulis pon, for the purpose of documenting it, supaya tak lupa memori bertunang :). I've upload the engagement photo in Facebook, but here some of my favorite. Since engagement aku ni temanya berjimat cermat, i didnt hire photog. My BIL je yang snap gambar.

Ok actually aku x suka gambar ni, sebab aku fake smile and control ayu sangat. Tapi rasa macam cun so aku masuk jugak dlm list favret pic hahahaha.

Kesayangan aku. Walaupon aku kadang2 melawan cakap dia (of cos aku rasa menyesal selepas itu), tapi inilah kesayangan aku. Sedih pulak masa type ni. :(

Nek aku. Who doesnt love their grandma, right?

Ilman in my arms. Hahaha his name is also Ilman, my cuz. This boy is my most favret boy before Syauqi was born, and before dia sombong ngan aku skrg. Now still my favret boy, tapi ranking dah jatuh sikit haha sape suruh sombong ngn aku.

My one and only, and bcos of that, she is my favret kakak ipar. Rajin masak, rajin ngemas. Dia mekapkan aku masa bertunang (dah nama majlis jimat cermat, guna je resources yg ada). Kalau muka dah lawa mekap camne pon lawa jugeee hahahahaha.

Aku rindu budak ni. Dah seminggu xde, balik taiping ikut kak ecah berpantang. Rindu sangat *teary eyes*

Sirih junjung ni hasil usaha kakni, mak dan aku. Pukul 10 pagi siap, Majlis pkl 12. Simple aje, tapi aku puas hati sebab buat sndri.

Sila abaikan perlakuan aku di situ. Focus gambar ni adalah nak tunjuk hantaran yg aku buat, dgn bantuan mak, Ila, dan kakni, dan sedikit usaha sepupu aku hanis dan syirah buat riben (aku kena kreditkan semua org). Clockwise, we start with kuih raya, tart nenas aku dan mak buat ngan choc chip cookies order dari Ria, kek lapis sarawak (dayang salhah, originally from sarawak), sirih junjung (sireh belakang rumah je), kain sarung from Jakarta masa aku abah dan ila ke Indo April lalu, fruits, chocolate kakni sponsored, and sejadah. Hantaran tu simple je, tapi aku bangga dan puas hati sebab aku BUAT sendiri

Rombongan tiba. Bakal bapa mertua segak berbaju melayu, bakal tunang (ketika itu bakal) berkemeja saja (tiada dalam gambar), tapi segak juga (amik hati).

Perbincangan bermula. Rupanya wakil pihak dia tu kenalan abah. What a small world right?

Abah bakal melepaskan seorang lagi anak. 25 tahun bela aku,.. *teary eyes again*

Dulu aku tidurkan dia, nyanyikan incy wincy spider untuknya, oh my favret boy!

Ini tunang aku. Jangan kacau yaa *suara lembut tapi amaran ikhlas dari hati. haha*

saat disarungkan. tak berdebarlah. excited adalah. haha.

ok masa ni malu2 sikit

Both abah wearing grey shirt, what a coinsidence :)

Both mak. We both called our parents mak and abah.

His sisters

my sisters. eh syauqi mesti nak ada dalam gambar kami bertiga haha.

My childhood buddy. Gi sekolah rendah naik basikal sama2, sekolah maahad dia partner aku 3 years in a row. Duduk belakang sekali dlm kelas, tapi kitorg selalu excellent. hihi.

The dietitian's cake (physically only, isinya butter cake, and that is fondant there hehe). Aku tak sangka Ilman adalah secute ini. Thank you love! (sila jangan geli dgr aku jiwang).

Close up sikit. :)

Doakan kami. Insya Allah May next year :)