CERITA LANGSIR.

2 months away to the wedding. 

Today I went to Kamdar to buy kain for the curtain. To have the curtain into reality is a hassle. First is to choose which textile warehouse offers the best price. I went to Kamdar and Jakel, and obviously the former is cheaper. Second, to choose the right kain. I opt for a purple color curtain with yellowish gold pattern. I really hope mom will like it. The next step is finding the tailor that again, offer the best price. My finding (ceh) is Jakel is the most expensive, Kamdar and a tailor in Beserah offer almost similar price, but I opt for the kakak in Beserah as she offer slightly cheaper price and because she is so nice and helpful. See, your attitude will always help u in whatever situation. 

So I bought the kain, 50 meter worth of kain + 8 meter plain satin for the curtain’s top scallop + 4 meter sheer curtain. Trust me its sooo heavy. I was thinking how am I going to bring the package into my car that I park about 300 meter away. Oh yes I went there alone. *teary eyes*

But again, in the midst of self-centered, egocentric world that we live in now, there are still nice people around. The adik tukang potong kain, despite being busy with lotsa customers and its not in her jobscope to carry customer’s purchase, help me carry the kain to my car. Thank you adik. Ramai lagi orang baik dalam dunia ini, semoga kita berjumpa, berurusan dan dikelilingi oleh mereka2 ini. Amin. 

Well, I know its nothing for some people, but I think preparing a set of curtain to our home is a big thing for me. I did almost everything on my own. Survey, cari harga murah, tengok pattern and design langsir, oh terasa sungguh seperti mak2 orang dik non… But of course ada jugak yg membantu. Kak ecah tolong survey tailor langsir di kuantan ni. Kakni sponsor separuh (which really mean a lot to me thanks kakak). Mak I tak berapa sihat, so she cudnt help with the langsir. Kalau dulu2 dia jahit sendiri. Takpe la, ini kira hadiah kita untuk mak. 

The other day I went to kedai Koboi to survey doorgift and some other things for the wedding. Yup yours truly went there alone. Ilman tanya kenapa tak ajak dia. I jawab saya segan. Heh. Tapi memang betul, I segan nak ajak orang, takut menyusahkan plk. Balik jengka last week I gi bridal butik pon sensorang je. Long ago its always hard for me to decide on something on my own. Yes I’m not a good decision maker. But now I think I have improved a lot. Somebody has to decide, kalau pergi sorang, orang yang pergi sorang tu la decide. Right? So takpe la, kite jadi wedding planner wedding sendiri. But so far I still can cope with it. 

Nampak je macam I buat semua sensorang. Tapi takla.. the plan, the thinking part, still involve those that very dear to me. Before pilih apa2, or decide apa2, I always kecoh2 tanya kat semua orang. I am glad I have those people around me. My family, Ilman, Miya, and my friends yang duk jauh2 pon selalu tanya pasal preparation. I am a spoiled kid in that sense but I don’t mind being one. I don’t mind being the doer, the one who execute the plan. But I am helpless and hopeless without support and encouragement from my love one. 

Motif bercerita cerita langsir? Saja..i tengok ramai bride-to-be buat blog cite preparation kawen. I pon nak buat la jugak. Heh. :)

fix you is back on top of my playlist. one of my encouragement it is!

KE MANA KAU HILANG?

Dah 3 orang kawan pm aku kat facebook. Cakap aku senyap sekarang. Facts? Tak lah.. aku macam dulu je. But I think there’s more in life than facebook. Hari2 bukak facebook, tengok gelagat orang, tengok gambar orang, apa orang tu buat, apa orang ni cakap. Kadang2 aku tersenyum sendiri, gelak pon ada. 

Aku rasa aku melalui fasa hidup yang baru sekarang. Eceh. Umur dah 25, dah nak masuk 26 pon x lama lagi. Dah nak kahwin pon x lama lagi, Insya Allah. Maybe aku risau pikir benda2 macam ni, tu yang nampak senyap tu. Truth be told, preparation nak kahwin tak banyak sangat yang dibuat. Risau? Of course. Nak kahwin kurang 3 bulan dari sekarang. Tapi boleh tak nak cakap I am more concerned to life after marriage than the majlis itself. Makin nak kahwin, aku jadi makin sensitive. Tak..bukan dengan Ilman. Dia baik. Very understanding. And now that he is here I am very happy. Thank you love. 

Yang buat aku jadi sensitif ialah sebab aku rasa more attached to my family now, especially ngan mak abah. Aku memang selalu balik, almost every week. Tapi ada sekali bulan lepas 3 minggu tak balik sebab ada urusan lain. Masuk minggu ke 3 tu lepas solat aku duk nangis teringat mak abah. Lepas kahwin, ketaatan aku, hidup aku, apa yang aku buat, semua untuk suami (definitely selepas Allah dan Rasul). Seriously, aku memang looking forward jugak untuk itu. Untuk jadi sorang isteri. Bukan aku taknak. Naaakkk sangat (eh bunyi macam gatal pulak haha).Tapi tu la, aku rasa sedih jugak, untuk jadi kepunyaan orang lain. Confusing kan? Eh? Yang tu nak, yang ni pon nak. Heh. 

Perempuan jomblo is one of my favorite blog. There is one entry that makes me cry. Again. Aih asyik nangis je. Cengeng betul. Tapi aku nangis sorang2 dalam bilik tak kacau orang. Heh.

http://perempuanjomblo.blogspot.com/2012/10/beginilah-adanya.html

Apa yang dia tulis, walaupun simple, pengolahannya, ceritanya, betul2 tinggal kesan kat aku. Beginilah adanya. Anak hanya pinjaman. Nanti esok2 aku pon macam tu la agaknya bila ada anak. 

So apa benda yang aku nak tulis ni? Dear friends, don’t worry. I am still here. If u come here, and we hang out, I am still me, like before. Bercerita. Bergelak sakan. Bergurau senda. Kuat makan. Tapi aku rasa, biarlah aku buat semua tu with real person, real life. Tak perlu nak update status kat facebook ‘hari ni aku makan durian crepe nyam2’. Atau ‘rindunyaaa la kat dia’. Atau ‘saya laparrr’. I am enjoying the real life experience makan durian crepe ngan kak aishah kat café KOM. Kalau rindu takyah bagi tau facebook, bagi tau la kat orang yang kita rindu tu. Kalau lapar pergi cari makan, facebook bukan boleh bagi kita makan. Heh. 

Till then. Kalau rindu aku, pm/whatsapp/call/sms saje. Atau datang sini. Organize bachelorette party untuk aku. Bawak aku main games kat Genting. Please.. Hehe.