LAIN SYAKARTUM LA-ADZII DANNAKUM

There are so many reasons to be grateful to Allah. For one, I am still breathing and alive today. Alhamdulillah. And having chance to seek knowledge, and attend the pre-marriage course, and having decent meal, and living in a war-free country (lets pray for our brothers and sisters in Palestine), and watching the rain pouring, and enjoying the smell of the wet grass, and listening to the lovely sound when u step on the dried leaf, and been bless with great family and fiancée and friends, and many more. Oh my the list goes on and on, just like infinity. There is no reason not to love Allah and be grateful to Him, right?

Roti cepit dengan telur + tomato + cili sos + light mayonnaise is one of the things to be grateful to have when u are hungry and too lazy to cook something more complex :)

Just completed my pre-marriage course happening in the Masjid Negeri. It was a 2 days course, from 8 am till 5 pm. It is indeed a very beneficial one, despite me being sleepy and tired and stuff. They talk about things that we already know, the basic principle of Islam, i.e Aqidah, Ibadah, Akhlaq, Munakahat, Family Management, and General Health. And I’ve learnt about all these like century ago. But that being said, it is always good to refresh all these. Fi al-‘iadah an-nafi’ah. Di setiap pengulangan itu ada manfaatnya. 

One of the reason to be grateful

And what I like the most is when one of the speakers reminds us that nikah is also ibadah. Been busy thinking and planning for the wedding, what color to choose, which bridal package to take, when to get the invitation card ready (this list also goes on and on..aiyak!), I tend to forget that nikah is an ibadah. So its good to always re-check our niyyah and set them straight, lillahita’ala. Insya Allah. 

I am grateful to HIM for giving me him

Another reason to be grateful? While typing all the stuffs above, my mom called. She reminds me to eat the pulut serawa durian that she made, that Long brought here for me. A little something like that really brought tears to my eyes. Mother’s love is endless. 

Grateful for good foods

The persons who is responsible for the above foods -durian dari kebun abah, masakan dari air tangan mak. What else can I ask for except Allah's blessing on them?

Again, good foods! Grateful for this jar of cookies hand made by nice and polite student who happened to know how monstrous I become when it comes to cookies *wave to u Husna*

Alhamdulillah wa syukurillah.. 

SUDAH SEPURNAMA

Sudah sepurnama

Aku jadi tunangan dia

Dia jadi tunangan aku

Dia buat aku bahagia, ketawa, tersenyum, berduka, menangis, kemudian bahagia semula

Harap aku, dia juga bahagia dengan aku

Aku merajuk dia pujuk (tapi dibiarkan dahulu beberapa ketika, heh)

Dia marah aku bersabar

Sedih aku dia hilangkan

Penat dia aku kasihankan (kalau dah kahwin boleh la picitkan, heh gatalkan aku)

Aku belajar kesukaan dia

Dia belajar kegemaran aku

Dia terima aku seadanya

Tapi aku tetap berusaha

dan berdoa

Mahu jadi yang terbaik untuk dia

....................................

Terima kasih Tuhan

Pinjamkan dia lebih lama untuk aku..biar sampai tua, sampai tutup mata..

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Ok, finished my puisi. Jiwang kan kite? Haha. I wrote my engagement story a couple of week back, but somehow  malu pulak nak tepek kat sini (walaupun aku tahu, cuma beberapa teman dan kenalan aku saja yang baca blog ni, heh). It's ok let it be in the draft. Kite tulis pon, for the purpose of documenting it, supaya tak lupa memori bertunang :). I've upload the engagement photo in Facebook, but here some of my favorite. Since engagement aku ni temanya berjimat cermat, i didnt hire photog. My BIL je yang snap gambar.

Ok actually aku x suka gambar ni, sebab aku fake smile and control ayu sangat. Tapi rasa macam cun so aku masuk jugak dlm list favret pic hahahaha.

Kesayangan aku. Walaupon aku kadang2 melawan cakap dia (of cos aku rasa menyesal selepas itu), tapi inilah kesayangan aku. Sedih pulak masa type ni. :(

Nek aku. Who doesnt love their grandma, right?

Ilman in my arms. Hahaha his name is also Ilman, my cuz. This boy is my most favret boy before Syauqi was born, and before dia sombong ngan aku skrg. Now still my favret boy, tapi ranking dah jatuh sikit haha sape suruh sombong ngn aku.

My one and only, and bcos of that, she is my favret kakak ipar. Rajin masak, rajin ngemas. Dia mekapkan aku masa bertunang (dah nama majlis jimat cermat, guna je resources yg ada). Kalau muka dah lawa mekap camne pon lawa jugeee hahahahaha.

Aku rindu budak ni. Dah seminggu xde, balik taiping ikut kak ecah berpantang. Rindu sangat *teary eyes*

Sirih junjung ni hasil usaha kakni, mak dan aku. Pukul 10 pagi siap, Majlis pkl 12. Simple aje, tapi aku puas hati sebab buat sndri.

Sila abaikan perlakuan aku di situ. Focus gambar ni adalah nak tunjuk hantaran yg aku buat, dgn bantuan mak, Ila, dan kakni, dan sedikit usaha sepupu aku hanis dan syirah buat riben (aku kena kreditkan semua org). Clockwise, we start with kuih raya, tart nenas aku dan mak buat ngan choc chip cookies order dari Ria, kek lapis sarawak (dayang salhah, originally from sarawak), sirih junjung (sireh belakang rumah je), kain sarung from Jakarta masa aku abah dan ila ke Indo April lalu, fruits, chocolate kakni sponsored, and sejadah. Hantaran tu simple je, tapi aku bangga dan puas hati sebab aku BUAT sendiri

Rombongan tiba. Bakal bapa mertua segak berbaju melayu, bakal tunang (ketika itu bakal) berkemeja saja (tiada dalam gambar), tapi segak juga (amik hati).

Perbincangan bermula. Rupanya wakil pihak dia tu kenalan abah. What a small world right?

Abah bakal melepaskan seorang lagi anak. 25 tahun bela aku,.. *teary eyes again*

Dulu aku tidurkan dia, nyanyikan incy wincy spider untuknya, oh my favret boy!

Ini tunang aku. Jangan kacau yaa *suara lembut tapi amaran ikhlas dari hati. haha*

saat disarungkan. tak berdebarlah. excited adalah. haha.

ok masa ni malu2 sikit

Both abah wearing grey shirt, what a coinsidence :)

Both mak. We both called our parents mak and abah.

His sisters

my sisters. eh syauqi mesti nak ada dalam gambar kami bertiga haha.

My childhood buddy. Gi sekolah rendah naik basikal sama2, sekolah maahad dia partner aku 3 years in a row. Duduk belakang sekali dlm kelas, tapi kitorg selalu excellent. hihi.

The dietitian's cake (physically only, isinya butter cake, and that is fondant there hehe). Aku tak sangka Ilman adalah secute ini. Thank you love! (sila jangan geli dgr aku jiwang).

Close up sikit. :)

Doakan kami. Insya Allah May next year :)

BILA HATI SEDANG KESEPIAN KU TULIS UNTUKMU SURAT CINTA...

This is one of my favorite love song. Yes it's a joget song, by Allahyarham Sudirman and no less. I'm sorry I'm such in lovey-dovey mood now, heh (pfffttt!!!).

But the song is beautiful, no?

:)

WHEN I HAVE TO PLAN BUT DONT KNOW WHAT TO PLAN

I bump into Brother Zainol yesterday on my way to the car park to go back home. After the usual salam, we have a little chat.

Brother zainol: How long have u working here?

Me: It will be a year this September.

Brother zainol: So where’s your direction? What’s your plan?

Me: *awkward silence*

It really hit me how I didn’t know whats my own future plan, my own direction (career wise, spesifically).   Me myself, who, by right should know myself better, didn’t have any idea what to do in the future. I’m sick right? Oh sangat kecewa dengan diri sendiri. 

Brother Zainol, from my very first day working in IIUM, encouraged me to pursue study. 'Pergi sambung master, though you are in clinical line', thats what he said. At least write article, because writing is something that u need to polish. I did write few articles, but finish none of them, semua separuh jalan. 

Saya nak sambung master, tapi saya sendiri tak tau what is my interest, nak sambung apa? Pathetic right? Itu belum cerita lagi rasa tak yakin dengan diri sendiri. Long ago I always think that I am smart (at least I believed that), not the smartest, but in the smart people category. But now, heck no! Boleh tak saya jadikan alasan tak plan nak sambung belajar lagi sebab saya rasa saya tak cukup pandai untuk sambung master? But I don’t wanna say that. Cakap2 kita kan doa, nanti I jadi x pandai betul kan x elok.

Oh so sad.

Clinical wise pulak, we only practice outpatient here. Counseling all the way. Sampai naik muak. And thank you SPA for turning me down two times. Two times tak panggil interview! Hell u lose one damn good employee SPA trust me. 

And by the way, bukannya saya tak bersyukur apa yang ada sekarang. Saya sangat bersyukur. Saya kerja di taman ilmu dan budi, ada office cantik, boss baik, great colleagues. Saya suka je counseling, jumpa makcik comel taknak ngaku minum air manis banyak, jumpa pakcik garang suka makan supplement tapi tanak buat diet control, jumpa adik debab suka makan coco crunch, jumpa adik kurus tanak makan apa2, etcetera etcetera. It just that I feel static, stagnant, plateau.

I know I whined too much, I’m sorry ya Allah. Astaghfirullah..

Letak gambar semasa kurus dan comel. Yang paling penting masa ini sangat bersemangat, sangat carefree, yakin dapat jadi orang berjaya, yakin saya seorang yang bijak, yakin to conquer the world. Semoga semangat (dan berat badan) itu datang kembali. Oh ada mazu dan suhaili juga, rindu mereka.

Letak gambar convo pemangkin semangat sambung belajar. Mungkin doa di bulan ramadhan yang mulia ini dimakbulkan, siapa tahu?

p/s: to whom it may concern, saya nak sambung belajar boleh x?

HOW TO MAKE POPIAH GORENG

Figure I could share recipes here, since Ramadhan is coming and I strongly recommend u girls (and guys, of course) to cook ur own meal for berbuka. Trust me, foods at the bazar Ramadhan only look scrumptious physically, u'll break ur heart once u eat them. Of course not all of them, some are as nice as it looks, but for majority of them, pffttt!!!

Besides, we can control our nafsu makan and eat in moderation. Tell me how many of u go to bazar and end up with foods more than u needed, hands up! *raising hand (yup yours truly pon sama)*. Not only you are eating extra calories (not good for the weight peeps, not good), u are also not following the sunnah by not eating in moderation (come on peeps, its Ramadhan, pahala berganda, even tiny deeds count!). Moreover, if the foods are tak sedap not as u prefer it would be, it will end up in the bin. Bukankah membazir itu sahabat syaithonnirrojim?

Ya I know been talking too much apa resepinya? Hihi it is actually a very simple dish that I love sooo damn much, its a favorite tea time kuih for our family. Drumroll please... POPIAH GORENG!! Wuhuuu kuih tersedap di dunia yang fana ini. I know I know its only popiah. But who cares, ramai je yang tak pandai buat kan? Kan?

Popiah goreng that I made during 'stock clearance' theraputic diet kitchen last month. Trust me it is as good as it looks. ;)

So siapa2 yang rasa nak mkn kuih paling sedap dan senang di dunia yang fana ini, check out the recipe:

*note the recipe is to make 40-50 pcs of popiah

Filling:
Taugeh/bean sprout -RM1 (I'm not sure of the weight, biasanya  cakap kat abang pasar nak singggit, and depends on how much popiah u are going to make. and if u dont eat taugeh, u can omit it or substitute with other sayur)
Cabbage -1/4 of the clove if its big (is it clove???hahah), or 1/2 if its small. Me prefer to cut it in long but thin shape
Carrot -1 nos, julienne
2 pcs chicken breast, cut into small pcs
3 pcs tofu (some people used egg. i love tofu more as it is soy products, could lower cholesterol level *not that I am hypercholesterolemia, but its always good to prevent than cure right?)
Garlic and Shallot
Oil to saute (best to use vege oil, its unsaturated fat aka good fat ;))
Salt for seasoning. If u like spicy filling, u can add white pepper
*some people add in udang kering. we never done that. first we dont like the taste. we prefer chicken (more yummy and healthy). second many of us are allergic to udang kering*

And of course popiah skin, never prepare it ourselves, so dont ask me how to make them. Beli je 1 paket got 50 pcs inside *evil grin*

How to make:
Haha. Easy peasy. Cut the cabbage and carrot and chicken breast. Saute the garlic and shallot under medium heat. Add in chicken, then pinch of salt. Cook the chicken until it is light brown, then add in cabbage and carrot, and taugeh (as it are more delicate, masuk last). Press and crumble the tofu (using lesung, or simply own hand -right side, and of course, clean hand) *translation: hancurkan tauhu itu sampai jadi macam scrambled egg. susah betul tulis resipi bahasa omputih ni*. Mix well. Done!

Put the filling in a strainer, strain it first because we dont want the filling to be too moist, it will ruin the popiah skin. Let is cool down before u start roll it, again, we dont want the heat to spoil the popiah skin.

When u are ready to roll, u can mix 1 tbsp of wheat flour with water to make an edible glue (make sure it is thick), to stick the popiah skin together. And remember, to roll it from the corner, not the center. It will make ur popiah looks nicer. ;)

Well while waiting for ur filling to cool down, lets make the popiah sauce shall we? Apa? Is Ija kidding? Popiah sauce? Boleh buat sos sendiri ye?? Haa dont worry adik2 sekalian. Kak Ija ni memang pemalas (kat rumah Ila yang selalu buat) tapi buat sos ni memang senang wal kacang. Ayuh kita tengok bahan2 dan caranya.

Ingredients:
1 paket seringgit dried chili (again am not sure of the weight, 100 g kot)
5 cloves garlic*
1/2 tsp tamarind paste* (some ppl used vinegar. me prefer tamarind paste. i dont like the strong pungent taste of vinegar)
3 tbsp brown sugar* (can use granulated sugar, but brown sugar will give better color to ur sauce)
A pinch of salt*

For ingredients marked *, the amount is not fix, i.e if u prefer sweeter sauce, can add more sugar, prefer more garlic-y taste, can add more garlic, and so on. First u need to blend the dried chili and garlic with water, and yes u can also use the red chili, up to u. But we prefer dried chili as it gives better taste. As for the water, if u prefer thicker sauce, just add a little water, and vice versa. Cook the blended ingredients until boiled, add in tamarind paste, brown sugar and salt to season. Done!

Deep fry the popiah 30 minutes before berbuka, baru la rangup lagi sedap bergaya.  Err u can use blended oil (healthier type of cooking oil), and can use kitchen towel to absorb the oil (cikdietitian feeling guilty for teaching friends to make deep fry kuih :(). Senang bukan? Selamat mencuba.

Tips: If u are only making it for 2-3 persons, u can make the popiah in bulk (ie 1 packet popiah skin =40/50 pcs), keep the rolled unfry popiah in ur chiller as it can be used up to 2-3 days. Just make sure u dont stack them on top of each other, or else it will easily tear apart. Besides, the humidity from ur chiller will ruin the popiah skin. How to store? Just layer the popiah with transparent plastic bag that u has cut according to the container size, before stacking the popiah, and use closed container. Buat hari Ahad, boleh makan sampai hari Selasa. Hari Rabu baru pikir nak buat foods lain muahaha.

Another pic of my popiah, just to motivate u =P

yummeyyyhhh!!!

2012: FIRST HALF

Its July the sixth today. Oh me oh my how fast time flies. Half of the year 2012 has gone. Finish. End. And I am anticipating the second half with patience, hope, doa, and tawakkaltu ‘alallah.

On Family

Abah is still working, I think his work is more demanding now that they extend the shift. People get really pissed off when there is blackout eyy. Working in bahagian kerosakan TNB (faultfinder it is), its his job to attend to any break down or shut down. Kesian abah. Mak is having difficulties to move due to OA. Knee and joint pain. And I don’t dare to do SGA to her (SGA is Subjective global assessment, to assess nutritional status). I believed she is mildly malnourished, as evidenced by the lost of wt and signs of muscle wasting, and inadequate intake due to LOA *sigh*. But that being said, they still the greatest parent in the world (So does your parent to u peeps! every child will say that about their parent right? Because they are!). Whenever we go back home mak still cook the best meal to us, and abah still got time to attend to us. Aren’t they the best? ;).  Allahummaghfirli waliwalidayya warhamhuma kama rabbayani saghira.

My beloved family during ila's convo, with nek as well, and without awi, of course.

On the other note, Syauqi and Eyin is getting cuter and smarter. Dah start cakap sikit2, dah pandai pilih makan, dah pandai merajuk, and what not. Syauqi is more manja, and Eyin is more adventurous. But both are tremendously adorable! Hehe.

Cubaan eyin tolak stroller syauqi

Ila has graduated, finished her bachelor in accounting, and happily working now, Awi has started his clinical year, and Adik pursue STPM. May Allah ease all my siblings in anything we do and murahkan rezeki kita. Amin.

Three stooges always want their pix together. oh there's extra cast there. syahida/la/za/uqi

On Work

We don’t have students tagging with us for the second semester, but that doesn’t mean we just sit back and do nothin’. Yes the workload is lighter compared to last semester, but there are still things to do. Heh. And I think I did lots of assessment this sem. Final year’s case study presentation, second year’s tutorial case study ppt, therapeutic diet viva, clinical viva, and bedside exam.

Besides the usual outpatient clinic at KK, me and Miya also went for attachment at HOSHAS, to polish up our clinical skill. Ye la, kita budak baru, tak terel, kena la belajar. And I just finished my 1 month attachment there. At first I was so reluctant to go there, supermalas! Of course Allah knows better. It has been a great one month! The best part of it is I get to live with mak abah for a month, just like the old time. I stayed at my parent’s place at Jengka, took about 45 minutes duration from rumah mak abah to hoshas. Pergi kerja breakfast kat rumah (of course prepared by mom tehee), salam mak abah, balik kerja indulged with mom’s cook. Rasa macam zaman sekolah maahad dulu. Hihi. I’m a happy kid!

On Personal Life

As the name implies, its personal.. ;). But again, I’m a happy kid. ;)

p/s ignore the vids. I memang helpless romantic ok hewhewhew!

On other trivial matter

Yesterday was the nisfu Syaaban, the mid of Syaaban. It is when our book of amal is brought up, and a new book is open. Lets pray to be a better person, a better Muslim. Semoga berbuat lebih banyak kebaikan dari keburukan. Talking about doing assessment to students earlier, dont ever forget that Allah is also assessing us. A little reminder to the little me as well. And of course when it comes to Syaaban, it means that Ramadhan is approaching. Semoga kita dipanjangkan umur untuk bertemu Ramadhan kali ini. Amin.  

U CAN PUT THE BLAME ON ME

My form 5 English teacher used to say; keep on blaming until you cant blame anybody. Lately I've been so demotivated, frustrated and sad. Teaching is not easy. Teaching students who listen well bring satisfaction. Teaching students who dont listen to u is tiring. Teaching students who dont appreciate you is still tolerable, I mean I dont ask for u to praise me or what. I know its my job. Teaching students who blamed all their mistakes on me, makes me cry.

I heard people talk. And I heard it from their own words as well.

'Never heard of it'
'Never learn it before'
'We only know about it from the hospital dietitian'

Classic example:

'Why u dont do SGA for the pt?'
'Because the dietitian in that hospital is busy, dont have time'
'Why u didnt do it on ur own?'
'Because I dont know how to. Never learn it before'

'Never learn it before...'
That broke my heart. I gave my own copy of SGA form and the SGA physical examination assessment. And as far as I remember, discussed it with every group. Yes I dont do hands on with each students, but to say u never learn it before, is an understatement.

Maybe lately I am overly sensitive, too fragile right now. Maybe the problem is me. I know I am far away from good, with very little experience and all. But spare me some pride. I am a human, after all...

Well, a little advice: Keep on blaming until you cant blame anybody.