Hari ini adalah hari emosi. I feel grumpy all day long. Pantang orang bagi stimulus (though small trigger), kite nak sentap. Ok lets start with where the hell is Gardenia Chocolate Raisin? Cari kat 3 tempat –dua Shell Select, satu 7 Eleven. Semua jual Butterscotch saje. Kempunan la kite nak makan choco raisin. Minggu ni (in conjunction with ‘losing-2-kilos-before-turn-25’ mission) berazam nak breakfast roti saje, that’s why I was looking for choc raisin bread. Tapi tak ape la, jgn layan rasa kecewa, orang lain lapar tak makan kau dapat makan roti butterscotch jadi kena bersyukur.
Moment sentap yang ke 2 adalah kat Klinik Sekilau. <Oh on another note, kak Aishah dah selamat bersalin on eve 20.2.2012 –february boy leh geng ngan auntie ija>. So I covered Sekilau today. Klinik Sekilau ni ada seorang *cough annoying*nutritionist. Tadi dia passed 2 patients to me, appointment hari ni, but not in dietitian’s appointment book. Obviously those patients are hers. Dia yang buat appointment, lepas tu main pass2 kat kite pulak. The usual me would not mind this, in fact I’ll be delightful. Ye la hari ni patient dalam appointment dietitian tak datang, yang walk in pon tak ada. Tapi hari ni rasa nak kesah, rase nak berkira. Kau kalau tanak jumpa pt tak payah la buat appointment. Marah betul aku. Nasib baik cik dietitian boleh senyum baik comel cute lagi depan pt. Patient tak salah, so kalau kite emo, jangan sampai pt terabai. Oh I could win award dietitian paling sabar macam ni kan? Kan? ;)
Episode sentap seterusnya adalah bile klinik habis. Dah la breakfast roti 2 keping je, haruslah kite rase lapar dan berkejar2 mahu lunch kan? Bile sampai kat parking ada kereta block kereta kite. Tak boleh keluar. T_T. Saya lapar. Masa tu berazam nak marah pemilik kenderaan berkenaan. Sepuluh minit tunggu dia bagaikan setahun. Lapar nak mamp*s masa tu. Tengok2 kereta auntie Chinese rupenye, and she truly apologize. Being a good citizen I am, tak jadi marah. Tak ape lah. Ni pon boleh menang award rakyat Malaysia paling sabar kan? ;)
Dalam sepuluh minit terperangkap dalam kete sendiri (over, I know!), duk fikir nak makan ape. Suddenly remember tak penah pegi lagi Burger king yang baru dibuke di TC. Kuantan dah ade burgerking don’t play2 ha. Lol. So kite pon gagahkan perut yang lapar itu masuk gear satu, dua sampai lima, and way to go to TC oyeah. Haa otw tu ada kereta yg macam haram tukar lane tak bagi signal buat jalan tu macam bapak die yang punye sikit lagi nak langgar kereta aku. Memang makan hon aku la kan. ‘Woi buta ke tak reti bagi signal ke tu signal kat belah kiri stereng kereta kau tu (signal kete proton belah kiri kan?). Stupid jacka**!’ jerit aku di dalam hati. And people said lady driver are worst, tak bagi signal ape kan. Haa that stupid driver is a guy. Lelaki. Kau ingat badan kau besar aku takut? Ni cik dietitian and Malay citizen yang lapar dan dah cukup banyak bersabar hari ni. Banyak sangat sabar memang boleh jadi hilang sabar la kan..
Ok panjang pulak incident sentap no 3 di atas kan. Next is kat burger king. Ok I tanak amik coke so substitute with milo ice slurp slurp. Imagine kepala dah rasa keenakan kelemakan kemanisan milo ais, sedut je air tu tiba2 rasa lain. Rasa masam. Rasa tak boleh blah. Berani dia bagi aku ice lemon tea?? Aku adalah rakyat Malaysia cum dietitian yang baru hilang sabar selepas banyak bersabar. Biasenye kalau kite dah minum macam tu I will let it be. Biarlah.. Tapi hari ni I nak milo. Milo ok? So kite mintak tukar right away. Budak tu say sorry, I still managed an honest smile (betul memang ikhlas sebab die ikhlas mintak mahap) and say its okay. Cool kan kite? Lol.
Oh ada satu cerita lagi yang trigger my grumpiness today. Received an sms from a year 3 student, regarding their community dietetic placement. Actually I ada rasa pelik sikit with the students. Year 3 and year 2. And some of the final year students. Masa zaman kite student dulu, I really respect all my teachers –be it academic and non-academic (lecturers and teaching dietitian la tu). And even all the staffs (including admin assistant). I tak akan ‘akak’kan staff. U know, its UIA, so we called the staff sister. And I wonder how the students so selamba called us kak. Its not that I’m so eager for them to call me sister. Like some of the year 4 I did understand because they used to be my junior (though we are not that close and some of them never talk to me pon even our rooms are just near by). Tapi tak pe la kan.. Ini those yang year 2 and year 3, I never knew them before. And last I recall, I tak ada adik masuk UIA (ok yg ni I tried to crack a joke, sile gelak).
Walaupon kami tak kisah (especially me and Miya la), but it shows your attitude la kan. We are your officer, your teaching dietitian. A little respect wont do any harm, no? I still remember masa I student, kalau nak sms leturer or dietitian, I always start with ‘assalamualaikum (full, not only salam), maaf ganggu sister/brother/doctor’, then baru the mesej. And I never use shortforms. Because I believed that it is one of the way to show my respect to them. They are not my friends, so I chose my words carefully. I don’t know whether it is just me (I sometimes overthink thing), or betul budak2 skrg ni weird sikit. Hmmm…
Haa ada lagi benda jadi hari ni yang buat kite marah sikit, but its not anybody’s fault ; eg I was looking for kak elis two times to submit something but both times she was not around, cari referral form early February untuk buat cencus tapi tak jumpa (nak call kak Aishah die dah masuk labour room pulak hihi) and few other small things. Tapi tak pe la tak penting.
Tapi ada benda yang cukup kelakar terjadi yang buat kite rase nak gelakkan diri sendiri and cakap tu la kau emo lagi. Tadi lepas shampoo macam biase nak letak conditioner, tapi I pergi tuang shampoo jugak, dah shampoo rambut 2 kali. Lepas tu dah elok2 amik conditioner instead of rambut I pegi tepek kat muka pulak. I was like ‘whats happening to me?’. Gelakkan diri sendiri hahaha.
Weird thing is I woke up from the right side of the bed today (right as in ‘betul’, bukan ‘kanan’). I feel very motivated waking up this morning. Monday blues? Naaahhh.. Semangat doo gi kerja tadi. Tapi tu la bak kata lirik lagu Hijjaz yang kite suka ~hidup tidak selalunya indah, langit tak selalu cerah, sulam malam tak berbintang, itulah lukisan alam…~ pastu sambung pulak ~dalam diam taburkanlah baktimu,
dalam tenang buangkanlah amarahmu, suburkanlah sifat sabar, di dalam jiwamu itu~. Haa kan bagus kalau dapat buat macam tu.
So moral of the story, when things start to fall apart, its easy (and normal) for us to get angry and be upset. Tapi sebagai hamba, kita tak boleh lama2 layan rasa marah dan kecewa dan sedih itu. Kalau boleh elakkan terus. Tapi kalau tak boleh elak, jangan biar lama2. Semua benda yang terjadi Allah yang aturkan. Kalau kita asyik nak blame orang, cari salah orang, marah-marah, tak sabar, Tanya balik, kita marah kat siapa sebenarnya? My beloved English teacher Miss Lin pernah cakap, keep on blaming until you cant blame anybody. Akhirnya, kita (sort of) nak tunding jari kat Allah sebab biarkan keadaan jadi macam tu. Astaghfirullah. Hamba macam mana kita ni kalau ada perasaan macam tu? *silent, istighfar*. So lets reflect, banyakkan bersabar. Bukankah sabar itu syurga? ;)
P/S: This is a lengthy post. Tahniah jika anda berjaya baca sampai habis. I memang saja buat panjang2 with no pics at all. So jika kamu berjaya baca sampai habis, kamu memang orang yang sabar. Boleh gang ngan kite hihihi. Kalau tak ada yang baca lagi bagus ini adalah sisi tidak matang saya hihihi lagi sekali.
P/S: Cerita ni berlaku semalam sebenarnya (20.2.2012), tapi tengah2 i type terbuat keje lain pulak hihihi.
