ANGRY FAT GIRLS

One of the things that I don’t like about Kuantan is it doesn’t has book store. Ok it has one, Popular bookstore in Berjaya Megamall, but that’s the only one. A boring one.  A ‘lack of choices’ one. A ‘no variety’ one. Pathetic right? 

I love reading, but lately I don’t really read books. Part of it is because there aren’t many choices in Kuantan. And of course, I became lazier by day. Besides, there are blogs and websites that hooked me up, so I still read, but not books. The last book that I bought is Kisah Para Nabi dan Rasul from MPH The Curve (while I was working in Selayang Hospital). Two stories book store is heaven! Sometimes I don’t even have any intention to buy book, but every time I passed by a book store, I must have the feeling to drop by. Browsing through the books, synopsis, admiring the creative and beautiful book covers (yes I love to judge a book from its cover-not literally), its endless! Tapi buku yang kite nak selalu mahal, so I end up not buying them. I should be less stingy when it comes to buying books right? Hehe. 

The last book that I read is The Firm by John Grisham (it is actually a re-read). Omg I love Grisham’s work. I started reading his novel during matriculation time. They were a lot of his books in the library. Dulu kite selalu pergi library dgn Hum and Ecah (Radio) and Kak Timah, tapi diorang study kite tidur. Lol. I have read The Pelican Brief (in two days –it is so good I can never put it down), The Testament, A time to kill, the firm, the last jury and one or two more that I have forgotten the title. 

Eh apa yang kite nak cerita sebenarnya? Hehe. MPH is having MPH Kuantan book carnival from 9 to 18 March at Zenith Hotel. Weehooo! I went there today (on the very first day, tanak kalah nokss), and spent my whole Friday lunch break there. I even skipped lunch today aha. But it is quite disappointing. The huge discount book (70%) are not organized. They are haywire and mixed. So I have to go through shelf by shelf to detect any good book. Penat tahu tak. Headache. I managed myself to find one anyway. Tadaa..

Stories of 5 women battling with weight issues -true story

Ok i lied when  I said I skipped lunch. A slice of Pandan Layer Cake from Rotiboy, Java Chips Mocha Frap, and a great book. I could live with that. :)

I flipped a few pages, scheme and scan, and grab it. It’s the last copy. 70% so I got it for only rm29. Yea great bargain. There are few more that I wanted so badly but damn I’m on saving mode (for the Jakarta trip –I hope it’s on, and Cameron Highland visit). Buku lain yang kite nak tu tak ada discount pulak tu. Haissshh kecewa betul.

But anyway, I am still happy with the Angry Fat Girls. Cant wait to start read it. Masa kite baru sampai bookfair tu tadi, Ustaz Zahazan ada, promoting his books and giving tazkirah *on other note, saya sangat suka Ustaz Zahazan*. He said that ‘sebaik-baik teman pada zaman ini adalah buku’. I bet kat library sekolah semua orang ada mural tulis ‘Membaca Jambatan Ilmu’, right? Lets make reading a habit peeps! Lets build a lot of knowledge bridges, jangan nak bina masjid je. Hihihi. 

p/s I begged u MPH, pls open an outlet here. Pleaseeee….

BEING 25 AND HAPPY, AND SOME SERIOUS MATTER :)

I was born on 22 February 1987, 25 years ago. So I hit 25 last week. I have no issue of being 25. 25 is a great number right? My only concern is in my 25 years of life (that’s quarter a century peeps!) is what have I done? What kind of servant have I been to Allah the Almighty. What kind of daughter have I been to my parent? What kind of sister have I been to my siblings, and what kind of friend have I been to my buddies. I just hope and pray that I will change for better everyday. Semoga hari yang mendatang adalah lebih dari hari semalam. Amin. 

But me being 25 is a major concern for a lot of people. Just quoting some of the birthday wishes:

Selamat ulangtahun kelahiran Ija. Cepat2 jemput makan nasik minyak. –yang ni I cakap balik nak makan nasik minyak bila2 pon boleh. Nasi minyak cenderawasih anyone? 

Happy bday Ija. Bile aku nak dapat kad ni? –my answer is kad takde. Pamphlet diet nak?

Haha yang ni best: Ija ko sedar tak ko dah 25? Ko kena start pikir dah pasal masa depan –Haha yang ni Fana yang cakap. Kite cakap balik weh fana ko lagi lah dah 26 tahun ni hihi. Sori eh fana gurau2 saje. 

Wish dari kakak I boleh blah jugak la: Happy bday. Baik ko carik bf cepat nanti abah carikan plak. -I reply 1 perkataan je: noted! Lol. 

Don’t get me wrong, I know those wishes by my dearests doesn’t mean any harm. In fact they are praying for me right? And lately I have quite a number of people offering me to look for someone for me. Alah senang cakap nak carikan kite jodoh la tu. Seriously all these happened when I hit 25. Masa I 22 dulu tak ada orang la pulak nak carikan I suami kan. ;)

But really, if you ask me, when are you getting married. I seriously don’t have the answer. As cliché as it sounds, hanya Allah yang tahu. I tak tahu, Allah saje yang tahu. However just because you don’t know when will your jodoh come, doesn’t mean that you cant pray for it right. So yes, saya hanya berdoa, moga dikurniakan (dan dicepatkan) jodoh yang baik untuk saya. But will it be enough?

No. Of course it’s not enough. We always, always ask for something good to happen to us. But do we strive for it? Do we work accordingly to achieve it? You asked for good result in exam, but do you study hard to deserve it? You pray God to grant you good health, but do u live healthily? Same goes –you pray for the best husband, but have u prepare yourself to be the best wife for your husband? Jangan nak mintak benda baik untuk jadi kat kita saja, kita pon kena jadi baik. What you give you get back aite?

So yes, I am preparing myself. Despite not knowing when my other half will come, I am preparing myself, so that when he comes, I am ready. Saya belajar masak sikit-sikit, belajar bersabar, belajar beradab, belajar tolak ansur, belajar untuk memberi, belajar menyayangi (really Ija??? I know my friends will be like ‘ni cupid angel mana dah panah love arrow kat Ija ni’ lol. Hey just because I am cheeky doesn’t mean I am not lovely haha). Menjahit je saya tak belajar lagi (saya harap siapa pun bakal suami saya, dia tak kisah saya tak pandai menjahit. Everyone has flaws right? =p).

And on top of all that, saya belajar macam mana nak menjadi isteri solehah. Yes fellas we have to learn that as well. Takkan la nanti dah kahwin baru nak belajar. Dari sekarang kita kena belajar, and this will be a continuous learning process. Tinggal lagi mintak semua yg sayang saya, yang tanya bila saya nak kahwin, those that are very concern haisshhh bila la Ija ni nak kahwin , untuk tolong doa sama untuk saya. Doa ramai2 lagi bagus kan?  Who knows one of your doa maqbul, bulan depan I kahwin. ;)

Lastly just quoting someone “Insya Allah, ada rezeki, ada jodoh, ada la..” Right? Yes it sounds cliché, but that is also the most honest answer that I can give to those who are asking. In the meantime, keep on praying peeps. =)

See..I macam Siti, sabar menunggu. :) p/s mula2 kite nak letak lagu ibu2 bapak kasihani aku tu, tapi rase mcm pathetic la pulak kalau letak lagu tu lol.

MY NEW ADDICTION

-image google-

Yeah I am addicted to this now, chocolate flavor. Twiggies Choc-A-Lot, 2 jejari span berinti krim coklat. 
Bought it almost everyday.
Memang gila.
I just could not resist the creamy chocolate taste melt in my mouth. Its the best feeling eva!

Right lets talk nutrition now.
1 packet contains 2 jejari span berinti coklat. 1 serving equals to 1 jejari span.

Each serving, weighed 40 g, contains 146 kcal energy, 5.6 g fat, 21.4 g carbohydrate (most of it comes from sugar), and 2.2 g protein. 

I can finish 2 servings (2 jejari coklat) in one go, which is equal to 292 kcal (not forgetting 11.2 g fat and 42.8 g CHO). Duhhh!!! No wonder I am fat now.

And how do I know most of the CHO comes from sugar? Besides the obvious (the sweet taste of course), the first ingrediens enlisted in the ingredient list is non other than SUGAR. That is a tip for u who didnt know -the first thing in the ingredient list is always the most abundant ingredient in the food. Note that.

One thing about being a dietitian is u will always be conscious on how much u take. Of course u cudnt resist the temptation. What left is the guilt u felt after u eat, and disappointment whenever u see the number on the scale. Hell yeah I am trying so hard to control the lust to buy Twiggies everyday. As a start, lets only buy it whenever I fill in the gas for my car. That is twice a week. Should be fine, no?

I SMURFED JOHNNY ENGLISH

THE SMURFS

I was so smurfcited watching the Smurfs. I smurfed Smurfs so much. Yeah u will hear lotta smurfs in this movie. This movie is sooooo cute, smurfdorable, fun, blue (and green -yeah there are lots of green things in the movie), and cute (i think this should come twice). Indeed memang cute gila. The plot however is a bit cincai and not that strong, but screw that, who cares! As long as it is fun to watch, I have no complaint. Enjoy the theme song! Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala~~

JOHNNY ENGLISH REBORN

Watched it last night after work with Miya. I used to watch movie after works, but I think it is not applicable here. Penat. Though the movie was fun but I was so sleepy sigh. Plus we got the first row seats. Not expected the hall would be fullhouse on weekdays. There are lots of funny scenes -my favorite would be the helicopter scene and the wheelchair scene. Hilarious! Well Mr Bean's styles -rolling eyes, fall down, gelabah should be expected when u watch this movie.

Thanks Miya and June for the company. Love!

ITS BACK!

The gastritis is back yesterday. I feel sick after Maghrib; a terrible headache, but just ignore it. Went out for dinner and grocery shopping with Long and Kakecah and lil Erinika, and otw back felt nausea. I feel the urge to vomit, but I was trying to hold it at first. Actually I am a person who can control the need to vomit when i feel nausea, but of course I will suffer -in a way I got headache and quesy tummy and uneasiness and uncomfortable and what not. So we stop by at a gas station when I decided to throw up. And there goes my dinner, all of it, nothing left T_T.

I hope that this episode of gastritis wont last long. As I mentioned before, vomiting took a lot of energy, its very tiring. And not to mention the weakness after such episode, and of course you need to replace all that has been taken out by eating something, but your appetite to eat is gone. Besides, I really cannot take medical leave at the moment, as literally, there is no one to cover for me.

Ya Allah, please grant us good health. Rabbi yassir wa la tu'assir.
Amin.

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY: WEIRD ME!

now how's that? =)

a jar of hearts (^_^)v

p/s: just to remember a day that i smile by myself in the car after crushing bumping into someone hihi.
p/s 2: images googled.

TIDUR TAK LENA...

Yesterday (10/9/11) I went to KL for few reasons:

1. Send off my sister and brother Ila and Awi to KL. Ila is about to start new semester (and her final sem) and Awi is going back to Indonesia this Tuesday. May Allah ease everything amin.

2. Attend a friend’s wedding at Gombak. Ain Sham (KISAS batch 0203) is married! Congratulation dear. Semoga bahagia sampai syurga.

3. Jumpa Syauqi! Aduh gigi sebatang die dah beso. *hugs kisses*

And this morning am going back home. Arrived home at 12.45 noon, and soon going back to Kuantan. Tired? Yes. So I am trying to sleep first before start the journey (as if Kuantan is that far from my house –took about 1 and ½ hour je). And I’ve been trying since 2.15 pm. Adoi tak boleh tidur la. There are a lot in my mind right now; lots of planning, lots of thinking, lots of mapping thing. Haissh. 

Well the main factor of the ‘could-not-sleep-as-there-are-a-lot-to-think’ disease is tomorrow is the first day of student’s clinical attachment. I have this habit that when something big is coming, my mind start working extra hard thinking of the so many ‘if’ that is going to happen, think of what I might do, how I may react, etc2. May Allah ease everything. Amin. 

P/s: I remember the very 1^st day when we were to start clinical attachment. Tak boleh tidur jugak. Now I am the dietitian, pon tak boleh tidur. Agak-agak student boleh tidur tak? *wonder*

SELAMAT HARI LAHIR ABAH

6 September 20011.

Abah turned 54 today. He was born 1 week after merdeka, hence has the same age as Malaysia.

He is one great father. He might not be the best father in the world, but at least to us, he is the best.

He work hard, for here and hereafter.

I dont have to brag about his kindness, only that I pray that all his good deeds will be accepted by Allah, amin. 

May Allah shower you with happiness, rahmat, and 'inayah. amin.

May all your wish come true, amin. 

May you be granted with good health so that many other people will received your kindness, and so we can repay your hardship to raise us, amin. 

May Allah bless you abah, amin. 

Abah dengan isteri dan anak2 abah, dari kiri: anak no 2, 3, 1, 5, 6, dan 4. 

abah dengan anak abah no 3 pada kenduri kahwin anak saudara abah

abah dengan isteri abah dan anak abah no 2 dan 3 pada hari convo anak abah no 3

abah dengan cucu-cucu abah

.SELAMAT HARI JADI ABAH.

Love,

Anak no. 3 ;)

CERITA MEDICAL CHECK UP DAN 18 TAHUN

Oh my oh my I already typed my raya story till the end (read: dah habis cerita dah) when out of sudden my lappie hang and they were gone. Ciscis dia tak autosave pulak!

Since am so sleepy (read: lazy) to retype tonight, here are (ehem2) the best story of today ;)

I report duty today at IIUM, for the post dietitian. Alhamdulillah that was one of the good story. But the best story doesnt end there. Well well, as I havent done the medical check up yet, off I went to Poliklinik Komuniti Beserah (PKB), right after small chit chat with the new HOD of Department of Nutrition Sc, Dr Wan Azdi. Of course the waiting for my number to up and the ulang alik PKB-HTAA-PKB (because PKB'S xray service ada problem) are annoying, but there are things that made me smile all day hihi. 

Cerita 1

While waiting for dental check up, the chick beside me suddenly ask "Check up untuk PLKN eh? Awak dpt kem mane?". And I was like huh??? p/s oh adik kalau kita jmp lagi kakak blanje eskem mat kool hoccay.

Cerita 2

While waiting for xray, a woman beside me tried to break the ice "Ramai kan orang? Akak teman adik buat xray die nak masuk UITM. Adik dpt U mane?". Hihi.

Cerita 3

Well the question was pretty much the same as Cerita 2, but it was asked by the doctor, HA, and nurse. 

Apa kesimpulan cerita ini? 

I am 18! 

Hihihihihihihihi.

p/s: ini baru betul2 muda. this is when i was 16. spot me!

CERITA RAYA

Assalamualaikum.

Hello awak2 semua. Dah sampai rumah ke? Dah balik kampong? Dah siap biskut raya? Berapa jenis tahun ni? Well as for us we don’t prepare much this year –tart nenas, kuih gunting, biskut arab/makmur, kuih Loyang and biskut cornflakes madu (hehe I just help the last one, tu pon curi tulang). Oh and my signature chocolate cake(haha bajet je) to be done tomorrow insya Allah.

Two days left to raya, so lets get the raya mood with raya story. We start with why this year's raya is different from last year shall we?

1. I was working on last year raya

I was working with a healthcare catering company before, and in-charged of a hospital in Wangsa Maju. As people aware off, health industry never stop. We can never close a hospital. So does people working in healthcare setting. Though we are outsource company, but a service is a service, regardless of hari raya ke tak. Sebak sayu sedih malam raya tu tinggal sorang2 tak payah cakap la. Tapi petang 1^st raya tu jugak I dah blah dah hihi.  

Lihatlah mataku yang bengkak bukti raya di perantauan

2. Musibah on last Ramadhan and Syawal

My youngest brother involved in an accident last Ramadhan. He was hospitalized for 40 days since then, HOSHAS-HKL-HOSHAS.The raya mood was gloomy last year, with abah and Ila and Awi alternately took care of him in the hosp, the very sad and worried mak, with Kakni and SIL were 7 months pregnant and what not. It was a huge ujian, and Alhamdulillah kami redha and believe that there is always something in everything. 

3. The cute-adorable-gorjes lil’ monsters are here!

Ahmad Syauqi, born on 7/11, and Wan Qaireen Rafiqa, on 10/11 last year, now both 9 months old. They are the sunshine in the family, the apple of our eyes, the adorable lil moster, the love of everyone. Cant wait for them to be back here, Qi on 3^rd day raya, and Eyin on 2^nd day raya. Cepat2 mokde nak bagi duit raya ni.

oh my oh my soooo adorable!!!!

oh my oh my yang ni pon soooo adorable!!!! *pix eyin ngn yayah die curi dr fb kakecah*

4. A sad story

Well I am not going to disclose it here, but enough to say that the story broke our heart to pieces. It involved someone very dear, very close to us. All I can say is we are praying for her happiness, semoga dia tabah. It break my heart to look her in the eyes and pretend that nothing happened, that everything is normal as it seems. Ya Allah, Kau tabahkanlah hatinya, kuatkan imannya. Amin.

5. Tahun ke 2 memberi duit raya

Alhamdulillah, though not much, but I am grateful that I can share pieces of my rezeki. My cousin kecik2 lagi (bcos mak is the eldest of 7 siblings) so ramai la kanak2 riang untuk diberi duit raya. Insya Allah kalau rezeki lebih tahun depan kakja upgrade duit raya korang hoccay. Doa lebih2 sikit hihi.

And that is why this year's raya is a bit different. Anyhoo, for raya, we are going back to kampong yang sangat la jauh tu tomorrow's evening, after bakar lemang. Yeah tahun ni buat lemang kat rumah Jengka, sebab abah kerja. So lemang yg telah dimasak akan dibawa balik ke rumah nek esok. Kitorang memang buat lemang every year, tapi tahun ni lain skit tak buat kat rumah nek. Rendang pulak mungkin rendang ayam, as requested by mamat indon sesat kat umah ni hihi (jgn marah awi). Main dish maybe nasi tomato (tak habis plan lagi), and other menu like nasi impit with kuah kacang tu mesti la ada kan. 

cite psl lemang haruslah ada gmbr lemang u olls. nak rasa jemput la dtg umah *pix abah bakor lemang 2 thn lepas*

So here I am wishing all of you Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin. Jemputlah datang ke rumah ye. 

update: menu sudah ditambah dgn tapai pulut atas permintaan abah. rendang mungkin rendang daging raya pertama, rendang ayam raya kedua.

CERITA SHOPPING RAYA DI JALAN TAR

Assalamualaikum. Rajin pulak update blog hari ni.

Well it was an ad-hoc plan. Yesterday I suggest to kak elly and jun to go out to jalan tar today, and tadaaa, off we went. Hehe. Waking up at 7 am today, I first watch my favorite show Tanyalah Ustaz, doing laundry, and siap2 to go to jalan tar. We were out of the house at 9.30 am, sharp. 

We drop by at Terminal Pekeliling first bcos Jun is getting her balik raya ticket. After Titiwangsa straight we went to jalan tar. And yes, as expected, it was traffic jam! Quote from kak elly: 'Negeri Selangor kosong hari ni semua turun KL'. Haha. It was indeed mcm betul je. Sea of ppl at jalan tar today. So we decided to park at Sogo, and ya Allah we were dying looking for empty car park. I was wondering pukul berapa diorg yg dpt parking ni sampai hmmm..Lastly we got this ‘melekap-ke-dinding’ parking, thank God kita naik cik chubby hari ni dapat la selit2. That was the best we could, and it was only after almost 15-20 minutes.

'melekap kat dinding'

So our journey at jalan tar started at 11 am. I purposely took all those pics, ye la entah bila la dpt outing raya kat jalan tar with jun and kak elly kan *sad*. 

i really like this pic. wish i was in it

I bought baju kurung and tudung, and few brooches, and butang baju melayu to abah. Jun bought almost the same as I am. Kak elly bought only tudung. But seriously the baju2 kurung are cheap. Those that u found in shopping complex with price tagging rm80-90 or even rm100, u can get as cheap as rm50 at jalan tar. Seriously. Same material, same fabric. No kidding. That is why people are dying to come regardless of sea of crowd and cuaca panas and semua rambang mata.

favorite pic haha. look at jun's head: mcm gambar tampal. funneyh!

sanggup abang ni pakai tudung nak promote jualan dia. gelis i tgk ade misai pakai tudung camtu

Still, we have to choose wisely, don’t overspend, and most importantly, urus nafsu! (yes I have been nagging about urus nafsu since I belajar dr ustaz zahazan, but it really does work tau (especially when it comes to buying foods). Meh nak ajar what I always do. When I started to rambang mata nak pilih, I will ask myself do I really need it? Itu suara nafsu ke suara Ija? Hehe u can try this it works (but sometimes it doesn’t hehe).  

pulang setelah penat bershopping

We finished shopping at 1 pm (tupon dah rase penat gile. I cant imagine how ppl can be in that crowded place for so long ish2), and arrived home at 2 pm. Playing around and fitting those baju that we bought, then collapse haha.

Well, looking at all those persiapan raya, made me realize that raya is approaching. And sadly Ramadhan is leaving. This is a reminder to us all, especially to me myself: Mari tingkatkan amalan, dan terus berdoa semoga amalan kita diterima. Amin.

p/s It was tiring, but I think it was a fun day today. Especially observing perangai2 orang kat jalan tar. Macam2 kerenah. Fun!

WHY WE PREFER TO COOK OUR OWN MEAL FOR BERBUKA

Assalamualaikum.

Hello peeps. May we all have a bless Ramadhan. Only 12 days left for this holy month that is full with barakah. Semoga amal kita diterima oleh Allah, amin. 

Dari Abu Hurairah R.A. beliau berkata: Rasulullah SAW pernah bersabda, “Orang yang berpuasa memiliki dua kebahagiaan yang dia bergembira dengannya: ketika berbuka dia bergembira dengan bukanya dan ketika berjumpa Robbnya dia bergembira dengan puasanya.” (Muttafaq ‘alaih)

Yes, that is very true, especially the later. It is our ultimate hope that all our ‘amal will be accepted by Allah. Our Lord, accept [this] from us. Indeed You are the Hearing, the Knowing(Al-Baqarah:127)

And for the former; kegembiraan  ketika berbuka? Berbuka is indeed the awaiting moment for those who fast. Some prefer to cook, some would go to bazaar, some choose iftar at masjid, and once a while we would want to pamper ourselves in nice restaurant or ramadhan buffet.

Anyhow, this is my bazaar ramadhan story. Up until today, we only went to bazaar 2 times (one near Selayang mall, the other near selayang stadium). And it was a total disaster. After a long and tiring day, and it so happened that that day u gotta lot of patients, and most of it are counseling cases, plus it was so hot that day, all u want is a decent meal. Yes I am clearly aware that is it is all dugaan ketika berpuasa so we need to bear with it, no complaint. But after a long stroll at the bazaar, fighting to mengurus your nafsu makan when choosing the foods that all of them ‘appear good’, and the moment u put it inside ur mouth, boom! Heartbroken.

We bought nasi kerabu once –the ulam2 dah almost basi. Popia sira –the filling was nothing but taugeh (yg dah hitam2 tu). Popia basah –the same as the popia sira. Yes it is very true that our Prophet SAW said that when u don’t like a food, don’t mentioned it outloud, tak baik menghina makanan. But please, please, please food hawkers. Please make a more decent meal. Don’t only long for big money and put aside the quality of ur foods. When it comes to taste, I can still compromise, as our taste preference is difference, some would love a sweeter ayam percik, some would prefer spicier. However when it comes to quality of the foods, I really couldn’t take it. Come on la, orang beli makanan u untuk berbuka peeps, berbuka! Ikhlas la sikit bila berniaga tu. How could u sell a very bad quality foods to orang puasa. Tak berkat tau. Tak baik.

Hihi that is why we prefer to cook. Although it is a very simple meal –as simple as ayam goreng and sayur lemak kobis, we’ll be satisfied. No complaints, no broken heart, no ‘rasa-nak-nangis-makan-makanan-x-sedap’.   My favorite our own cooked meal so far was nasi lemak (tq tq tq kak elly sedap gile) and mee goreng + cucuq udang. The bestest! The other meal like masak lemak cili api udang, tomyam ayam, ayam masak merah, etc are great too. Beronok-ronok seronoknya hihi

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Anyway, what I am trying to say is that if we have time, just cook our own meal. Not only that we have decent meal, but also we can control our nafsu makan (ye la when u look at foods at the bazaar all appear appetizing and u start to buy more than u need), and of course, prepare healthier meal (err in our case not that healthy kot huhu). And no, I am not against all food hawkers at the bazaar. Some sell really good foods, and I much appreciate it. 

Thank you for those who prepare good foods up till this 17^th ramadhan. And that include my lovely mak, my sister kakni, housemate kak elly and jun, and restoran asam pedas and restoran bumbu desa (omg their foods are great!). 

makanan berbuka that i brought from home couple of week back: ikan patin bakar tempoyak, roti jala and kuah durian, popia goreng. sayur campur and kari ayam tu cikjun masak

p/s selamat berpuasa. Tinggal berapa hari je lagi. Sad that ramadhan is leaving. Smg dpt tingkatkan amalan dan smg amalan diterima, amin.

p/s 2: hari ni saya masak ikan kembong goreng berlada (but it was a bit dry) and sayur lemak labu (mula2 keras, nasib baik kak elly tlg selesaikan masalah). Sory kak elly dan jun :(

CERITA MENGURUS NAFSU

2 hari lepas sebelum pergi office aku tengok Tanyalah Ustaz kat tv9. Ustaz Zahazan, bercerita tentang perang badar (perang nafsu). Ustaz cakap Allah ciptakan nafsu, dan Allah jugak ciptakan akal. Jadi, nafsu sebenarnya adalah untuk diurus, bukan untuk dihapus. Ulang suara, urus! Jadi dalam bulan Ramadhan yang penuh barakah ni, aku sedaya upaya cuba urus satu nafsu yang aku percaya agak susah untuk diurus; nafsu makan. Aku jenis yang tak berkira pasal makan. Aku beli ape yang aku nak, yang nampak sedap kat mata ni. And most of the time it end up in the bin. Alhamdulillah sejak aku berazam nak urus nafsu makan ni, dah tak ada makanan end up in the bin. Quite an accomplishment eh? ;)

Satu lagi nafsu yang aku nak urus adalah nafsu marah. Eh sebelum cerita pasal nafsu marah ni mari kita recall syllabus usrah masa kat kisas dulu. Naqibah aku adalah Kak Sumayyah. Nafsu ni terbahagi kpd 3 sebenarnya; mutmainnah, lawwamah, dan amarah. Ok huraian menurut ingatan aku yang tak berapa dhabit ni macam ni. Mutmainnah ialah nafsu yang tenang, yang selalu mengingati Allah dan sentiasa dekat dengan Allah. Lawwamah pulak biasanya nafsu kita sebagai manusia biasa lah. Kita tahu sesuatu tu salah, tapi tetap rasa nak buat (sebab tak pandai urus nafsu), dan end up menyesal atas perbuatan tu. Akhir sekali, nafsu amarah (pernah dgr kan orang cakap amarah syaitan etc) ialah nafsu yang mendorong seorang buat jahat dan tak rasa bersalah, nauzubillah. Tapi aku google tgk2 blog orang ada yang listkan 7 jenis nafsu. Aku pun x tahu, Wallahualam. 

Panjang bebel (sebab tu kawan2 aku selalu cakap ija suka explain banyak2. sorry old habits are hard to kill). Back to story. Sekarang aku berazam mengurus nafsu marah. Ya aku memang dah bertukar menjadi seorang yang agak temper skrg, yang mana aku sungguh malu dgn perubahan aku yang satu ni. Dulu aku seorang yang agak composed dan cool. Bukan la cool mane pon, gelabah2 tu tetap ada. Cool dalam konteks ni ialah tak cepat marah. Nak pura2 marah pon aku x reti. Sebab dulu aku adalah orang yang positif. Ok2 dah2 angkat bakul angkat sendiri astaghfirullah. Tapi betul tau tak tipu. Marah aku adalah equal to menangis. Ye kalau aku marah sangat aku menangis. Tapi aku mmg kuat nangis pon so mute point di situ hehe. 

Jadinya bila masa aku bertukar menjadi orang yang kuat sentap ni? Jawapannya adalah bila aku mula bekerja tahun lepas. Aku mula tinggi suara kat orang, tahap tengking2. Aku pernah halau staff aku keluar dari ofis, and I said get lost! At some point (mmg dah sampai limit dia) aku cakap stupid kat orang right in front of their face.  Pantang orang buat salah aku nak sentap. Haish kalau traffic jam tu, memang medan menghambur perkataan2 x elok la. Lagi2 kalau ada kereta mcm haram main potong2 line orang, kalau tukar lane x bg signal, etc. Tapi aku x blame siapa2. Aku tak blame company lama aku dulu. Orang yang blame orang lain untuk kesalahan yg dia buat adalah org yg loser bagi aku. So I took all the blame, totally. Sebabnya? Sebab aku x pandai urus nafsu marah aku, dan aku sesungguh-sungguhnya (wah punya la nak ta’kidkan kesungguhan aku kat situ) malu dengan sikap aku yg itu.

Sempena bulan ramadhan yang mulia ni, aku cuba (read: sedaya upaya) kikis sikap cepat marah aku tu. Jangan sentap tak pasal2. Banyak2 sabar. Banyak2 istighfar. Banyak2 diam. Lagi banyak cakap lagi banyak dosa. Aku cuba menjadi ija yang cool dan composed (perasan) mcm dulu. Doakan aku ya?

Satu lagi nafsu yang aku cuba urus adalah nafsu tidur. Kalau zaman dulu2 tengahari je rasa nak tido. Petang nak tido. Pagi x payah cakap la, mmg susah nak bangun. Tapi semenjak dua menjak ni Alhamdulillah bangun agak awal. Lagi2 bulan puasa ni, kan nak kena sahur. So far rasanya mmg aku selalu terjaga sendiri, tanpa perlu dikejut orang (of course alarm hp pon membantu).  Lunch break pon, sebab tak makan bulan puasa, aku isi masa dgn buat satu aktiviti besides tidur. Tapi tidur kejap sebelum Zohor tu sunat kan? Correct me if am wrong. 

Jadi itulah cerita urus nafsu aku. Aku mintak sungguh2 apa2 benda elok yang aku cuba buat bulan ramadhan ni berkekalan la hendaknya. Untuk kamu2 pon sama la ya. Semoga kita beroleh keberkatan dan rahmat dari Allah.  

Rabbana la tuzigh qulubana ba'da idh hadaytana, wahab lana min ladunka rahmah, innaka antal Wahhab.

the coolest man on earth

p/s entry ni lebih kepada muhasabah diri, so aku guna bahasa yang dekat dgn diri aku. Peace!

p/s 2: aku letak gambar abah sebab abah aku adalah orang yang sgt cool. ija nak jadi mcm abah laa.